I’vebeen in a weird funk lately. I’ve got a lot on mind. Winter is reallystarting to set in, and I’m feeling the effects of the longer nights andrainy days. There’s a lot of stress in my life right now, which I supposeis why I haven’t been writing very much. I feel very drained –empty and out of gas.
Tonight, I pulled Requiem for a Dream off the shelf. It’s one ofmy favorite movies, but one that I can only watch very rarely, when I’min a specific mood. I guess tonight was one of those nights; I felt drawn toit. I guess I somehow needed it.
I don’t know exactly why, but that movie has a profound affect on me. Asdisturbing as it is, it’s a truly beautiful piece of art. Watching it isan almost masochistic experience, because it’s such a traumatic film. It’slike being hit in the stomach with a sledgehammer. But the experience issomehow also cleansing in a way that I have a hard time understanding.
In an odd way, I feel better.
Requiem
Saturday, December 04 2004 - blog
- #1 Brian Vargas on 12.05.2004 at 9:04 AM
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Totally.The fridge scene is the best.Sounds like seasonal affective disorder (SAD).Make sure you get exposed to as much daylight (or other bright light) as possible.Feel better.Brian
- #2 ace on 12.06.2004 at 2:48 AM
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it's horror movie. have i missed point but isn't it requiem for a dream (requiem for american dream as an message).i beleive that same man made "pi". another great movie.
- #3 Patrick Cauldwell on 12.06.2004 at 9:02 AM
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Requiem is right up there in my mind with The Cook, The Thief, His Wife and Her Lover.Beautiful, entrancing films I never want to see again.They are both among the most astonishingly beautiful films I've ever seen, but they are just too much for me to handle emotionally to watch again.But I wouldn't have missed them for the world.
